I decided three weeks was too long for me not to go out en femme so I went to Pink Punters on Saturday 2 May. It wasn't a tranny night and there were only about six of us there. Like The Dirty Dozen on a small budget, only we were quite clean, as far as I could see, without being over inquisitive and not into fights.
There were a number of people who hadn't seen trannies at close quarters before and I got a few nervous stares and a few startled comments like " Huh!! That's a man!!" I expect to be stared at occasionally and in fact quite enjoy challenging peoples preconceptions of acceptable behaviour and code of dress. It actually makes me smile when I hear such comments, especially if someone has been stood next to me for a while before they cotton on that I'm a tranny.
I was dressed quite conservatively really. I had gorgeous golden yellow silk trousers with stockings and a pair of black high heels, gold and black horizontal striped silk top with a big black flower pinned on to it. You've guessed it. I didn't take any photos of my outfit. Rats!
I took over five hours to get ready so there was little time to take a few photos. To complete my look I wore a simple black necklace and black fishnet fingerless gloves with a leather yellow snakeskin cuff and shiny brass cuff on my other arm. OK, it was showy but I didn't wear a slutty short skirt and revealing top. I won't say that I don't like that sort of look because it depends on one's mood but for that night I went for cool and sassy but elegant. OK, maybe it was more like fool, sissy and elephant but I tried.
Actually wearing women's trousers makes me appreciate how badly I dress as a guy some of the time. Some of my trousers don't fit me and some of the jeans I wear are just sloppy. A lot of my shirts are way too big since I lost some weight over the last two years. Being a tranny makes you much more aware of your figure and most trannies are slim and look after their bodies more than the average guy. This is a sexist "thing". Most women like to look good and presentable but most guys will be happy to carry a beer belly with them all day long and will only be aware of body odour when dogs sniff them and scamper away.
OK I'm trying to be serious here. Trying to get to the bottom of why I like to present myself as female. I have to talk in generalisms so you will forgive me for doing so. Or you can just go.
OK, you still here? Good. I like being smartly dressed, well presented and clean. I'm a peacock and like to be noticed as being well dressed. Unfortunately I find men's clothes tend to be boring in colours, hues, textures and details. They are often designed to attract women by conveying a reliable, sensible unaffected, powerful figure: no frills, silliness or daintiness. Fair enough.
But if your character, or alter ego, is that of someone who likes to be noticed, enjoys detailing and textures and accessories, then men's clothes tend to disappoint unless it is something on the lines of uniforms , leathers or some smart suits. I hate wearing a smart suit and then being forced to make my pockets bulge (stop it!) with mobile phones, wallets, keys hankies, maps, coins, bus tickets and bits of fluff. Then, when I change my clothes I have to remember to move all my assorted stuff into my next outfit. I'd rather carry my stuff in a bag and keep my clothes more streamlined. So I should carry a handbag at all times. unfortunately that is enough to get get you beaten up in quite a lot of areas. So I choose to carry a messenger bag quite a lot of the time, which is fine but hardly up in the design stakes. I would like to carry a hand bag without being stared at or being ridiculed. OK I'll settle for being stared at.
Society is gullible anyway. If the public had seen today's hairstyles 15 years ago, they would have laughed uncontrollably at the spiky hair of today's younger generation. It wasn't so long ago that any guy wearing 70's gear would be laughed at.
I guess I like the glamour of women's clothes. Most women like to be the centre of attention so a guy who accompanies her invariably has to dress down to show off his woman.
Then again, I know that it is not just clothes. I have an abundance of traditionally feminine qualities which makes it imperative for me to be treated as a woman at least part of the time. It's fine being a guy some of the time but it can get boring and very restrictive. Then again why should feminine qualities just be appendaged to women? There are many women who have many masculine qualities. They often express these qualities in their clothes.
It is women who have taken to wearing all sorts of clothing, including men's clothing throughout the ages. " Society" does not accept that men should adopt women's styles throughout the ages. Why is this? What is "society"?
"Society" is really the majority of people. A majority may be, say, between 60% and 80%. For mathematicians , yes I am aware That 51% would be a majority but who's counting? Apart from you anoraks? Just go away before you become and endangered minority. As I was saying, or about to say,this majority would make up a general opinion. Why should a majority dictate the apparel of everyone? Aside from anoraks of course.
We should all dress according to how we wish to. Of course if we do so, we open ourselves to ridicule from others. What is not acceptable is verbal or physical abuse from others. This is what it boils down to: the ignorance and narrow-mindedness of a small section of society. Or maybe I am being naive. Maybe it is not narrow-mindedness. Maybe it is more the threat to their own insecurities or even the attitude of "Let's get aggressive, we know it's wrong but it's a laugh."
I've worked it out that I can just about wear what I want in some parts of Central London and maybe attract stares and comments, which I can accept, but I would be unlikely to be beaten up for it. In my home village I just don't want to be the constant subject of whispers and rumours. You would only have to wear 1970's gear here to be beaten up. The clothes would be too modern for the yokels to cope with.
I've noticed people staring at me here just for sipping a bottle of Bud. in a pub, instead of drinking a pint of beer. And that was before I decided to use a straw.
Clothes maketh man. But, without getting beaten up about it, for a tranny, make up and accessories complete the look which makes dress sense.
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